This year has been a year of massive ups and downs. It was a year of learning - discovering who I am, discovering that I am stronger than I thought, and learning that I am resilient. This time last year I was going through depression and high anxiety. I was going to intensive therapy twice [...]
So Christmas has come and gone for another year. It always amazes me how huge the build up is, and how short the day itself is. As much as I love spending time with my family and friends and having the time off to enjoy relaxing, it's always a time of heightened anxiety for me. Why? Because of my social anxiety.
Am I body neutral? I no longer loathe my body. I can look in the mirror and feel fine about what I see rather than wanting to scream. I can accept that my body is useful and strong. I can accept that I now wear clothes that are maybe a size bigger than what I used to be. But I wear them proudly. I don't yet love my body. But I am growing towards having more positive feelings about it.