So I’ll be honest. I have sat down several times over the last few weeks to try to write this post. But every time I sit in front of my computer and try to type, my brain seems to go into shut down mode. I can’t think of what I want to say, even though I know what I want to write, I can’t seem to put it into words.
Basically, what I want to achieve with this post is to show that even though my motivation has been lacking in the last month or so, and even though I haven’t achieved what I set out to achieve, my mental health has probably never been healthier.
Well, let me explain. One year ago I had a similar slump in my motivation. I was struggling with what I wanted from my life and I was trying to figure out how to get to where I wanted to be. I was also beating myself up daily for being so unproductive. I was my own worst enemy. I berated myself for not knowing what I wanted, for not knowing how to get myself out of this slump and for being a ‘mess of a person’ in general. When I look back on that now, I can honestly say that my life was actually fine. I had pulled myself out of a depressive period, I was back at work and I was socializing again. Sure I didn’t know what I wanted from my life, but does anyone at the age of 24? So you can see how my mindset has changed.
I am no longer so hard on myself.
Over the last year I have worked hard on improving my mental health. I have gone to therapy weekly, I have taken my medication and I have begun to open up to people close to me. But that’s not all, I have also been learning to give myself a break, to no longer strive for perfectionism in every area of my life, but to learn to enjoy the little things in life.
So yeah, I’ve been lacking motivation over the last few weeks. But I have also been going through some very difficult family things, I have started working in unfamiliar places, I have been in a very unstable place both in work life and in family life. I have been tired to be honest, and I’ve needed a break. My self-care routine has taken a bit of a backseat because of everything that has been going on, but that doesn’t mean that I haven’t been looking after myself.
A year ago, I would have hated myself for not staying on track, for not getting everything done. But now I have learned the importance of forgiving myself, of being kind to myself. And to be honest, that has made all the difference.
I am now ready to start working on my goals again. I will have to sit down and reevaluate my goals for this month (as it is already nearing the end of the month!) But the main thing is I need to start small. My motivation is quite low still, but I can work with that by taking things a step at a time. I plan to begin writing down my weekly goals again, to break these down into easy manageable steps and to congratulate myself for any little wins during the week.
So if you are struggling with your motivation levels right now, that’s OK. Everyone goes through dips, but it won’t last forever. The main thing to remember is to give yourself a break, start small and take baby steps. Focus on today, where you are at now, and make small changes to get where you want to be.